My husband ... of not quite 8 years... it would have been 8 in August... has passed away April 28th, 5 days after his 70th birthday (spent in the hospital in Arkansas)... don't pray for him now... I'm not asking that... I am asking from the bottom of my heart for you to pray for those suffering from Multiple Myeloma as well as their families.  2 days ago... just 2 days ago my baby died...  he was my world... I feel so damn lost now and if I had the guts and didn't have daughters... I would have joined him by now.  I feel empty yet hurt from within to without.

   He had a DNR... At first I hated that idea and the first thought was to keep his brother (The POA and Excecutioner of his Estate) from finding out what was going on (I thought maybe they could keep him alive and he would have gotten better... there is so much more to this that I will explain in my blog... but not now)... and that, at the time, was Patch's wish also.  My husband asked me not to tell either his brother nor any of his three kids... his wish was to have just me at his death.  I couldn't honor this wish... if he had asked me this in the start and had they not known of his whereabouts?  ... Well... I still would have called them as i did.  They have the right to know...

   Either way... it was THE most HORRIBLEIST thing I HAVE EVER WITNESSED!!!  I can't talk about it now... but I will in the future...

   I also want to thank all of you for praying for my husband and for All of you who donated blood for him.  Please be assured that your blood will go for the next person who so despertately needs it.

   I am not going to be around for a week or two... or more... I just cannot deal with this... my world ceased to be at 4:14 pm 4/28/10.

   I have to morn three times... once where he died at UAMS... once again here in PA and again when I return home to Fl.  I am having a F****G HARD time dealing with this!!!

   Please pray for all those others going through what my husband went through... in the end dying was easier for him...